I Mean… Define UnRealistic!?

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I know some people with unrealistic expectations…

The whole “I-Dont-Wanna-Work-But-I-Wanna-Be-A-Millionaire” group…

even the whole “I’m-Gonna-Blow-My-Paycheck-At-The-Casino-Cause-Im-Feeling-Lucky” gang.

I am NONE of the above.

I work hard.

40 hours, 5 days a week…

And I do not aspire to be a millionaire…

before I’m 30…

I won’t even panic if I do not hit millionaire status this lifetime…

I have a REAL handle on what my future may entail if I continue to work hard and unlike a lot of people fame and celebrity isn’t MY dream…

I just want to live COMFORTABLY…

Example:

I want to be able to pay my bills…

ON TIME

and maybe take my kids to see a movie WHEN IT HITS THEATERS…

and not have to wait until its on RedBox…

Because I can only really spare the $1 $1.20 and not the $Gazillion a trip to the movies would entail…

I mean, I just want to be able to go out to a restaurant with my husband from time to time…

and actually do a “date night” that doesn’t make us have to rework our entire monthly budget…

I want to be able to make a monthly budget that doesn’t involve getting a loan from a relative…

or a close family friend.

I want to be able to go in my closet and have options…

Outside of what shirt to wear with these black pants I wore yesterday, the day before, the day before that, and 2 days before that.

I want to be able to afford enough gas to get to work for the 2 weeks until I am paid the next time…

I want to buy lunch sometimes…

I want to not have to sit at work and feign disinterest while everyone is chomping away at their restaurant and delivery orders…

I want to lose weight because I work out every now and again…

Not because I’m hungry as hell and couldnt bring leftovers to work because it has to be dinner for the following night as well…

Hell, I will even take being able to ACTUALLY live paycheck to paycheck…

That would imply the paycheck was enough to last the next 2 weeks…

Yep, I’ll take that.

I know God promises to provide for His children. I know he does it for the birds, the bees, and all those other less significant creatures who don’t have to worry about bills, food, clothing, and etc. I know I am blessed. I know. I know. I know. But Lord only knows the depth of this frustration I have. I am thankful for everything I have… life, health, strength, children… but I desire more. I just want to be able to check my bank account the day before payday and see more than $2.00 from the last paycheck. I want rent to roll around and not feel this twinge of panic. I want to have a paycheck that I dont have to pay anyone back out of… I just want to be able to see my Saving’s account isnt at $0. I want to see my husband be blessed also so that we may be blessings to our children. I is that unrealistic?

Maybe my expectations are set too high…

*drops mic

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