I truly feel horrible right now. I cannot even begin to explain… I told myself I wouldnt allow myself to get to this point ever again, yet here I am. Sad. Crying. Defeated. I cant go into 2011 with this… Im tired of sitting back and just taking this bs. Im done. Im gonna do what I obviously should have done a long time. This time I dont have the excuse of not having any money… its $60 per packet. Why wait? I have the money… I give up. Its over.