… cause if you dont, you will die. lol
I am floating right now… its crazy because this time yesterday I was struggling with some issues. Personal… so, I wont divulge details. BUT I was having a hard time with them. Today… I feel like a new woman. I never imagined that a simple talk with my pastor, Rev Thompson, would have such a lasting effect on my entire outlook. The forecast has been dreary with a 80% chance of tears for the longest… and today, its sunny. Im beaming. Life is good. I am hopeful, positive, and I have faith that this is merely the beginning of the rest of my life as Mrs. Gordon.
Last night was an eye opener. Did you know that I am not perfect? LOL Well, I finally got the memo. smh Its rather saddening but I accept that I am (dare I say it) normal. *gulp* I read a lot of scriptures last night… One in particular, Rev Thompson suggested I read: Proverbs 14:1 NIV which reads “The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down”. Before reading this scripture I asked God for the wisdom and understanding to get the proper message from it that He wanted me to recieve. After reading it… I understood it completely. No questions asked. I cannot be foolish enough to destroy my own happy home. I have to be that wise woman and build upo the foundation God has laid for my marriage to survive. It was then that I realized I have been foolish. Sure, I could go tit for tat about who has done who wrong x amount of times… and I’d probably win that argument… BUT I have also played a part in the path my marriage has taken… a role I am not proud of… a role I will no longer play.
I also read Proverbs 31… “Who can find a virtuous woman”. This scripture has been planted into my memory for the longest time and rereading it last night I realized many qualities about this woman that I have yet to find in myself. It is my goal to be this woman… ♥ Virtuous… Verses 28 & 29 NIV “Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her. Many women do noble things but you surpass them all”. I am usually so focused on how he can be better… and what he needs to do, and I never look inside myself at my shortcomings and faults. God created woman to be a helpmate for man… I like to say he named us WO-MAN because WOE is the MAN who doesnt have a WOMAN lol I desire to be a blessing for my husband… just as I pray he will be a blessing for me. Afterall, we’re in this for the rest of our natural lives… may as well start acting like it♥